Thursday 14.09.2017
Combined Dry and Water Fast – Day #20
Water Fast
So I broke my Dry Fast yesterday, not because I was thirsty or anything, just bored of not drinking, but I’m also
bored of drinking water anyway. Some days are not all rainbows unfortunately. I
feel given up, I feel I would like to eat something delicious, fruits and vegetables.
But I tell myself to be strong,
after 20 days I must continue,
days will pass and I’ll reach my goal and thank
myself for being strong and keep
on going with my Fast. I’m not
hungry, just annoyed of drinking water I guess, but from a point of view
this is just childish somehow,
because I’m like a little kid that
wants the candies, not because she “needs”
candies, just to satisfy the cravings;
so I better stay away from these stupid
cravings.
I estimated
that I could, potentially, complete my
Water Fast around October
6th/7th – if
everything proceeds as expected. Today I did not lose one single gram from yesterday, but it could be
water retention since I broke my Dry
Fast just few hours ago. I have to remember
that, if I want to start a new Dry Fast,
I either do it for at least 5/6 days
or I don’t do at all. Because 48hrs
are worth nothing in terms of weight loss, and actually I’m just shocking my body that would retain as
much water as it can!
So far I feel ok, mood is good, my stomach is growling often today,
but I’m not hungry. I bought an unsweetened tea at Starbucks today, and
really it was absolutely disgusting. Now I guess I cannot
tolerate anything, I should stick with just plain
water, not even lemon water, it’s
bothering me that too now.
Sometimes I think on how will be my body reaction to food again, once I break the
Fast in 3 weeks from now. It does seem a long time, but I’m sure time will pass quickly if I don’t think too much about it. I wish I had lots of
things to do during the day, so I could be busy
and not think about my Fast. It is
really a lot of mental component here,
because there’s no hunger
whatsoever, so it’s just my mind that calls
for food.
My journey
though, it is still long but I have lots
of weight to lose unfortunately,
so I don’t have much choice, I don’t want to be fat as I am, I don’t feel well,
it’s causing me a lot of anxiety, and
when I’m skinnier I feel younger,
full of positive thoughts, I feel
like another person. People interact with me differently, I do too, I feel more
confident, my clothes fit and I can
use my whole wardrobe without stressing in the mornings on what to wear. I know
it might seem a superficial way to
see things and my life, but this is what makes me happy, and everybody is different, what makes you happy can be
different from someone else. We have to find what’s right for us.
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