12 hours into the Dry Fast
What can I say? I'm a total failure when it comes to lose weight and fast. I broke my fast with water at the end of the fifth day and with food at the end of day 6. I was at the banquet hall working and the food was amazing and so tempting, I was weak and I gave up. Now I'm back here, trying to lose the same KGs I had before starting the previous Dry Fast, everything went back on of course, but I didn't lose much in those 5 days so I'm not surprised that I didn't see any change. Every time I hope it's going to be different and every time I'm back here complaining with myself over these failures. Will I be ever able to lose my weight? Why I cannot water fast anymore? I can't Dry Fast for too many days and I need time to lose all the fat that I have accumulated in these years. I wish I had again all my strength and discipline to perform a 30 days water fast, or combined, dry and water for few weeks, that will suffice I guess.
In these days I'm really stressed because of my parents and the responsibility of my brother in law, often I feel emotionally weak and I want to eat, too much when I wouldn't needed anyway. Today is going to be a long day for me and I hope I'll be strong enough to resist to any food temptation because I'm tired to see myself so fat, no clothes that fit and so ashamed of just thinking on being intimate with someone so overweight. I hope I'll collect and find all the strengths I need to achieve my goals, it's hard but I have to.
So far I'm ok, my stomach is grumbling here and there but I didn't have any hunger cramps yet, and hopefully I won't have any. First couple of days are the worst!
Tuesday 28 May 2019
Friday 17 May 2019
2019 Fast 5.0 - Dry Fast Day #5
109 hours into the Dry Fast - 69.25 Kg
I'm finally into the 3-digit numbers of hours, it is always a nice accomplishment for me when I reach it - although it's just 4.5 days in this Soft Dry Fast.
Yesterday I did an enema, I felt I needed to clean a bit my bowel - I felt uncomfortable knowing there was still food sitting there.
I also took a bath with Epsom salt, with relaxing music, a candle and a face mask to clean my skin. During a Fast I always feel the need to pamper myself. It's like an extra care for my body.
This morning I had a good loss, a bit less than I was expecting (considering what I released after the enema) but still ok. I feel my mouth a bit dry today and I can tell that my speech will be soon affected by this, I already feel my dry tongue while talking. I am working from home today, it's a beautifully sunny day and I would love to stay hours in the sun - but I have things to do. I'll be working tonight at the banquet hall and hopefully I won't be tempted to drink water, not much the food - which I know I'll be ok resisting it - but I get dehydrated when I work there, running around; in any case it won't be my first time dry fasting and working so I should be ok. I felt really motivated this morning, thinking that this is the time for me to finally achieve all my weight loss goals, to have a better skin, better mood, more confidence in myself and smile more! I hope I can be strong enough for all of that.
I'm finally into the 3-digit numbers of hours, it is always a nice accomplishment for me when I reach it - although it's just 4.5 days in this Soft Dry Fast.
Yesterday I did an enema, I felt I needed to clean a bit my bowel - I felt uncomfortable knowing there was still food sitting there.
I also took a bath with Epsom salt, with relaxing music, a candle and a face mask to clean my skin. During a Fast I always feel the need to pamper myself. It's like an extra care for my body.
This morning I had a good loss, a bit less than I was expecting (considering what I released after the enema) but still ok. I feel my mouth a bit dry today and I can tell that my speech will be soon affected by this, I already feel my dry tongue while talking. I am working from home today, it's a beautifully sunny day and I would love to stay hours in the sun - but I have things to do. I'll be working tonight at the banquet hall and hopefully I won't be tempted to drink water, not much the food - which I know I'll be ok resisting it - but I get dehydrated when I work there, running around; in any case it won't be my first time dry fasting and working so I should be ok. I felt really motivated this morning, thinking that this is the time for me to finally achieve all my weight loss goals, to have a better skin, better mood, more confidence in myself and smile more! I hope I can be strong enough for all of that.
Thursday 16 May 2019
2019 Fast 5.0 - Dry Fast Day #4
83 hours into the Dry Fast - 70.45 Kg
Another day passed and I'm now into Day #4 of my Soft Dry Fast, still under 100 hours but my Ketones level was pretty good this morning showing a dark ketostix with 80mg/dL. Energy wise I'm still good and the thirst is bearable, my mouth feels nasty though and the lack of sleep is extremely annoying. I wish I had at least 5/6 days into the Fast to be sleepless. I'm losing weight pretty quickly, I was surprised this morning to see more than 1Kg of weight loss. I still didn't have the chance to do an enema, but just because I'm lazy, not that I wouldn't need one! I have lots of weight to lose and I still don't know how to keep on going with this fast, after I reach my breaking point and need to rehydrate. I was thinking on just sipping on water after 10 days or so and try to keep on going with the Dry Fast. I wish I knew I could do this Dry Fast as long as 10 days or 14 days, that would be great, I will certainly see some good results for my weight loss. Next week my parents are coming back and I hope I will not be tempted to eat or drink - as usually happens with them. I'm avoiding calling them so I don't get nervous or anxious and find mental escape with food. When I have things to do at work, my days go faster and I don't mind at all the Dry Fast, after all I'm too busy to think about it. My mental clarity is getting better, not fully there yet but I hope I can see more benefits in the next few days of the fast. This morning I felt my arms a bit weak, while I was brushing my hair, just few seconds though, plus I always feel a bit weaker in the mornings, my blood pressure is low, but during the day I feel much better and full of energy.
Another day passed and I'm now into Day #4 of my Soft Dry Fast, still under 100 hours but my Ketones level was pretty good this morning showing a dark ketostix with 80mg/dL. Energy wise I'm still good and the thirst is bearable, my mouth feels nasty though and the lack of sleep is extremely annoying. I wish I had at least 5/6 days into the Fast to be sleepless. I'm losing weight pretty quickly, I was surprised this morning to see more than 1Kg of weight loss. I still didn't have the chance to do an enema, but just because I'm lazy, not that I wouldn't need one! I have lots of weight to lose and I still don't know how to keep on going with this fast, after I reach my breaking point and need to rehydrate. I was thinking on just sipping on water after 10 days or so and try to keep on going with the Dry Fast. I wish I knew I could do this Dry Fast as long as 10 days or 14 days, that would be great, I will certainly see some good results for my weight loss. Next week my parents are coming back and I hope I will not be tempted to eat or drink - as usually happens with them. I'm avoiding calling them so I don't get nervous or anxious and find mental escape with food. When I have things to do at work, my days go faster and I don't mind at all the Dry Fast, after all I'm too busy to think about it. My mental clarity is getting better, not fully there yet but I hope I can see more benefits in the next few days of the fast. This morning I felt my arms a bit weak, while I was brushing my hair, just few seconds though, plus I always feel a bit weaker in the mornings, my blood pressure is low, but during the day I feel much better and full of energy.
Wednesday 15 May 2019
2019 Fast 5.0 - Dry Fast Day #3
59 hours into the Dry Fast - 71.7 Kg
Yesterday was a long day for me, I spent more than three hours in the car in order to go for a job interview - which I don't even know I can commit to it anyway (my three jobs are already keeping me really busy so far).
My energy levels are good, no Ketones checked though. This morning I had a bit of low pressure when I woke up; I feel much better now but it took almost two hours to feel normal again. Last night I had again lots of weird dreams and lack of sleep, this is really the most annoying part of a fast - I might have said it a million times I know.
I don't feel hungry nor thirsty but I can tell that my cravings are not all gone yet, it tells me that I might not be in fully Ketosis yet, my stomach is still rumbling here and there and I often wish to eat or drink something. I guess the desire of drinking never goes away, I even dreamt about it! My breath is now in the acetone-like state, it feels awful and I'm a bit concerned when talking to people. But, after all, today is just day #3, it shouldn't be so bad yet...or I hope so, I can't actually tell with precision.
Yesterday was a long day for me, I spent more than three hours in the car in order to go for a job interview - which I don't even know I can commit to it anyway (my three jobs are already keeping me really busy so far).
My energy levels are good, no Ketones checked though. This morning I had a bit of low pressure when I woke up; I feel much better now but it took almost two hours to feel normal again. Last night I had again lots of weird dreams and lack of sleep, this is really the most annoying part of a fast - I might have said it a million times I know.
I don't feel hungry nor thirsty but I can tell that my cravings are not all gone yet, it tells me that I might not be in fully Ketosis yet, my stomach is still rumbling here and there and I often wish to eat or drink something. I guess the desire of drinking never goes away, I even dreamt about it! My breath is now in the acetone-like state, it feels awful and I'm a bit concerned when talking to people. But, after all, today is just day #3, it shouldn't be so bad yet...or I hope so, I can't actually tell with precision.
Tuesday 14 May 2019
2019 Fast 5.0 - Dry Fast Day #2
35 hours into the Dry Fast - 72.7 Kg
After struggling for so long, I was finally able to begin a new Dry Fast, hopefully I can beat a new record this time around - aiming for 14 days!
Last night my sleep was not great and I had a terrible headache for most of the afternoon and evening. I woke up at around 2:00 AM and did not fall asleep till 4:30 AM or so, I was just tossing and turning in my bed. When I went to sleep I was extremely nauseous, I felt I was going to vomit for sure. But then it passed, I forced myself to stay in bed and to try sleeping on my pounding headache and my nausea, and it helped after all. I had weird dream in my few hours asleep, something that I usually don't experience on fed days, and not for sure so early into the Dry Fast.
Energy wise I'm still in a normal state, I don't feel thirsty at all - just a bit of grumbling stomach, but not hungry per se. I didn't check my Ketosis yet but I feel particularly cold today, wondering if it's the weather or my Ketones are rising up.
Every Fast is different from another one and this time, I feel I'm having stronger detox symptoms, maybe because I waited too long to start a new Fast (after all my eating habits are not bad and definitely not changed from any previous Dry Fast).
I have gained a lot of weight in these past few months, always procrastinating my fast and believing I can lose weight by just eating less. Sure it might help for a week or so but then, I'm back on square one with even more pounds to lose than before. I'm tired of this yo-yo dieting that I'm doing, I should find a way to maintain all I lose during my fasts.
I found a couple of motivations this time around though. The first one is to meet again an old friend...that never seen me so fat, so I want to look better for him but mostly feel better with myself. Another one is because I look much older with all this extra weight on me, I can see on how people interact with me. Summer is coming soon and I don't want to hide again under extra large maxi shirts and leggings, I want to be able to wear again all my beautiful dresses.
After struggling for so long, I was finally able to begin a new Dry Fast, hopefully I can beat a new record this time around - aiming for 14 days!
Last night my sleep was not great and I had a terrible headache for most of the afternoon and evening. I woke up at around 2:00 AM and did not fall asleep till 4:30 AM or so, I was just tossing and turning in my bed. When I went to sleep I was extremely nauseous, I felt I was going to vomit for sure. But then it passed, I forced myself to stay in bed and to try sleeping on my pounding headache and my nausea, and it helped after all. I had weird dream in my few hours asleep, something that I usually don't experience on fed days, and not for sure so early into the Dry Fast.
Energy wise I'm still in a normal state, I don't feel thirsty at all - just a bit of grumbling stomach, but not hungry per se. I didn't check my Ketosis yet but I feel particularly cold today, wondering if it's the weather or my Ketones are rising up.
Every Fast is different from another one and this time, I feel I'm having stronger detox symptoms, maybe because I waited too long to start a new Fast (after all my eating habits are not bad and definitely not changed from any previous Dry Fast).
I have gained a lot of weight in these past few months, always procrastinating my fast and believing I can lose weight by just eating less. Sure it might help for a week or so but then, I'm back on square one with even more pounds to lose than before. I'm tired of this yo-yo dieting that I'm doing, I should find a way to maintain all I lose during my fasts.
I found a couple of motivations this time around though. The first one is to meet again an old friend...that never seen me so fat, so I want to look better for him but mostly feel better with myself. Another one is because I look much older with all this extra weight on me, I can see on how people interact with me. Summer is coming soon and I don't want to hide again under extra large maxi shirts and leggings, I want to be able to wear again all my beautiful dresses.
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