41 hours into the Dry Fast - 70.7 Kg
Today my mood is really low, almost depressed and I really don't know why. All the existential doubts of life are coming up in my mind. I should be more chilled and repeat to myself that I do not care about anything, I should be happy to be healthier, smart and just beautiful as I am. But it's not always so easy, I have moments of real depression and moments when I'm happier or careless. I sent few sms to my man showing some concerns about our relationship - he is so young, but I didn't receive any reply yet, and although he might be just sleeping, my mind always goes in negative thoughts, catastrophic reasons on why things are not-happening! I'm wondering if this is also a form of detoxing, I'm just saying out loud whatever goes into my head, bad or good things. I even have the desire to tell all the opposite things to my boyfriend now; but I'll abstain to do that or he might think that I'm crazy...which I'm not!
The Dry Fast is going good so far, no sign of hunger or thirst; but it's been also just 41 hours anyway. My brother in law started with me his first prolonged fast, but he drinks water every time he feels really thirsty, still good though, as first-timer he is doing great.
Since yesterday I lost almost 2Kg, it's a huge number that I wish I could keep on seeing every single day of my Dry Fast! But I know it is just temporary, I will stabilize on 800/900 grams per day going forward, which is still a good average anyway.
Tonight I'll be working at my 3rd job - an event venue here in downtown, so from 3:45pm to 2:00AM or so I'll be walking around serving food and move furniture from one room to another one. This job is really demanding on my body, I just hope it will be worth it - in terms of calories expenditure. I'll check tomorrow my Ketosis and my weight again.
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