R3P2 -VLCD #31 a new HCG Vial and my weight gain

It's been already 31 days on this 3^rd Round of HCG, time flies but my extra pounds not so much. Today I started a new vial of HCG, I felt the other solution, after a month of use, lost its potency. I cannot get anymore into Ketosis, I am hungry sometimes, my cravings are way more than usual, my mood is not great either and my weight seems stall since days now. It's frustrating.

This morning the scale reported a weight gain of 700gr! 700! Unbelievable! It's more than 1.5lb! How could that be possible with such a tiny amount of calories?! All right, in my partial-defense I should say that my stomach is acting weirdly lately, I tried to take so many probiotic, laxative teas, dulcolax, coffee – but nothing worked so far, at least not relevantly. It never happened to me before; really the probiotic and the smooth move teas are usually extremely effective, sometime even too much! Not this time though, just wondering if it's a reaction of my body for not releasing too much fat. I hope with this new HCG solution things will go better. I cannot keep on drinking caffeinated coffee, I start to bite my lips and the headaches for the withdrawal are always terrible.

Regardless of tomorrow outcome – weight or stomach department issues – on Saturday I will do an apple day. I will buy 6 big apples and cut all of them to eat it during the day, without much of water intake as well. I hope it will work, apples for me are a comfort food and I noticed that my body likes them very much, so much that I usually gain weight instead of losing it. I will give my hope on the new HCG vial potency to help me out on that. I should be fine in terms of temptations since Saturday I'm going on a short trip to St. Jacob's country, so I'll be on the bus all day, from 7:30 AM till late evening.

A while ago I estimated I would be in the 5X-fifties by now, it didn't happen; I'm re-estimating this target weight a couple of times already. I really want to leave this 6X-sixties number for good, my dresses are still not fitting and with this bowel movement's issues I feel like a balloon!

Wish me luck, I will update soon with my Apple Day results!

HCG Diet- R2P2 VLCD#17 my reflections

Another post for my blog to track all the details of my long dieting journey, it seems endless sometimes. HCG so far helped me a lot, but I have to admit, this Round 2 is definitely not like my first one. I guess this is normal, focusing for too long on something has been always an issue for me, I just regret not having completed my diet with the first round, I was doing so well! My advice is that till you're running with a good pace, keep going because if you stop chances are you won't be back on the wagon with the same enthusiasm and commitment. 

My biggest problem while dieting, is not so much being hungry – definitely with HCG I'm very rarely hungry – but my constant attention on food in general, on what I'm going to eat, when I'm going to…how I will cook, if I need to stop by the grocery store to buy ingredients and so on. I think ONLY about food, all the times, and this is drowning me down so much that it's really hard being focused on Dr. Simeons protocol to the letter. Anything I eat adds up at the end of the day on the amount of calories consumed, and with HCG you have to stay on the 500 Calories plan, even a small increase will reflect on your scale the day after.

This Round#2 I didn't even see any good ketosis so far, I know this is not 100% reliable, since I drink a lot during the day anyway, but last time I had great traces through almost all round. Another thing I skipped on doing this time around is my Wednesday's Detox Bath, I guess being almost in summer doesn't help but, let's face it, it's just me being lazy, nothing temperature or weather related, and I didn't even drink a single Detox tea either!

This morning my scale registered a 0.4Kg increase unfortunately, I knew I will see a gain today, yesterday I was home all day and I had so many cravings that I compensated drinking tons of decaf coffee and almond milk, not to mention the large amount of Jell-O and Snack Packs! Junk food, I should say: shame on me.

I don't care what people say but seeing a weight gain on any amount while dieting, it is extremely frustrating, on this complicated diet is alarming to me, previous to this gain I had 4 days stall, not sure if it was for my TOM or simply for my lack of judgment concerning my food/drinks. 

I've moments in which I feel ok, motivated, strong and others where I feel weak, I don't trust myself and my long term commitments. I've still so much to lose and it seems so difficult even losing half pound.

In the office often people judge my diet, my weight, my approach to food. They don't understand how frustrating is being on diet, being overweight, being obsessed with food. I am alone in this battle; it's between me and my body, my brain, my cravings.