It's almost painful to admit, but my Round #2 of HCG was, this time, a complete failure. I read here and there by other HCGers that this is "the curse of the second round"!
I'm thinking that I was just not ready to start again a
round. I came back from my vacation with extra pounds yes but the deal-breaker
this time was being back on my former binge
eating disorder. That is unforgiven, my eating disorder throw me back into
my dark side of the dinner table; it created inside me all those unspeakable food-desires that I cannot control in any way.
And here I am with all these pounds, struggling on what to do,
on how to start again the HCG Diet
with good intentions, with right motivations that could bring me back where I
was, before going on vacation.
Oh man, I wish I knew then what I know now! Never EVER EVER
again in an all-inclusive resort! Those places are a public attack to anyone
weight's management control. You cannot resist, everything tastes so delicious,
I was harmless against it… nevertheless I blame only myself, because – inside-
I knew I would let my repressed-hunger
be stronger than my food discipline.
I went to my doctor a couple of times, to understand why I
was feeling so weak lately, why the lack of concentration or those huge
cravings. But, as I expected, they said everything is fine, everything is just
inside my head…oh WTH I say.
I've already received another vial of HCG but my family doctor told me that my B12 is extremely high and I should not use, so now again starts the
Bacteriostatic Water hunting game! I just hope this time I won't waste the HCG
vial with my weakness.
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