One of the HCG recipes that is very popular in the HCG community is the Chocolate Delight, a mix of Coconut oil and unsweetened cocoa powder (the Hershey one is the most popular but I used camino organic one) with some Stevia and a drop of Vanilla extract - added by personal choice and taste. I tried this recipe, adding xylitol and a bit of almond milk. I must to say: I deeply hate coconut so I'm already the worst candidate to really judge this recipe; but I gave it a try, thinking that at the end maybe my chocolate addiction will help me overcome the disgusting taste of coconut. Well it didn't happen, believe it or not I actually binged on it yesterday and this morning (terrifying results) and now I'm in pain with my stomach with a strong nausea that make me desire to throw up anything I had in the past 5 days! Never ever anymore chocolate delight for me…way too much coconut oil, it's absolutely the worst chocolate dessert I ever tried in my entire life. If anything the coconut oil should be added with caution, like ¼ of a cup for a cup of unsweetened cocoa powder, the recipe instead lists the opposite! People are concerning with the bitterness of the cocoa, well in case Carob powder might be used as substitution, maybe more stevia too? Plus I believe there's no such thing of bitterness when having chocolate.
What did I learn from this unsuccessful recipe is that I cannot have desserts in any form, I'm addicted to sugar, to chocolate…I went too cocky on this recipe and I paid for my lack of caution when dealing with my food addictions, I have a bad sweet disgusting taste in my mouth now, I won't enjoy eating nothing for at least a couple of days, so much this chocolate delight make me nausea.
Indulging in desserts, in chocolate brings me to binge fairly easily, I'm scared when I do it, because not being under control of my own actions is – for me – terrifying, I can throw away months of sacrifices dieting in not time when binging. Plus the psychological aspect of a Binge Eating Disorder is draining.
Today I won't eat much since I'm still disgusted for my binge episode of this morning, it is a good thing though, I guess the only good thing so far. This morning I was 57Kg, which puts me a bit more over my LIW, I need to be alarmed when this happen because I had a great weight on Saturday morning and it seems that I gained 4 pounds in just a weekend! That cannot happen!
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