It's been a year now since I started my first Dr Bernstein Diet. After meeting
my goal in October 2014, I gained back slowly everything I lost, and some more.
Apparently this is something common for these types of diet – and now I know exactly WHY.
One
important detail – that's not mentioned in the Dr. Bernstein instruction Manual
– is that when you put your body into a starvation mode, chances are that you
will develop a Binge Eating Disorder.
Binge
Eating is a normal instinctive reaction of your brain to survive, to
compulsively request all those nutrients that you removed with your strict diet
for so long, that you craved for so long.
Binge Eating affects more people that you would
believe.
At the
begin of my maintenance I started to have episodes of binging, at the time I didn't
even know what was a B.E.D., I
thought I was stupid and incapable to control my insane desire of eating 8 muffins
in 3 minutes or an entire package of
chocolate chips cookies. I thought my sweet tooth and my chocolate addiction
were the reasons I could not control myself. Well that wasn't the reason.
Lots of
people assume that Binge Eating Disorder
is caused by an emotional state, that for sure there's an emotional trigger
that makes you binge so compulsively and with no control.
If for some
people, that could be true I guess, most of the times it's not. I tried to
analyze any emotional reason that could have caused my binge attack, each time.
But there was no pattern; once I was sad, once I was happy, once I was tired,
once not….nothing that could relate that nonsense uncontrollable behaviours. I
deducted that it was only my brain screaming
for food, it was just a habit that my brain developed after all I put through
with my Dr. Bernstein strict Diet.
The sad
part is that not only I spent lots of money with Dr. Bernstein Diet, I
kept on going back to the clinic - because weight becomes an obsession when you have a Binge Eating Disorder, I kept on starving
my body and frightening my brain, I kept on gaining back pounds on and off and
on again, not only that but what more depressing is that I now have an Eating Disorder that kills me inside as person, I don't enjoy food in the
same way, I don't think about eating in the same way. I have a food obsession
that is taking my days away from what should be living a normal and healthy life.
If someone
tells you that you won't feel hungry during Bernstein Diet, he/she is lying. I
was constantly starving, feeling
weak, dizzy all the times. That was
the real feel of what starvation is.
How can I possibly think that my brain does not get affected by this state of my
body? We are perfect machines, being
in Ketosis activates parts of your brain that we usually don't have in alarm (if taking a normal food Diet) –
your brain is asking you for help to survive, hence it will start to binge as soon as it can.
I'm not
here to give any advice in regards of BED,
since I'm not a doctor and I'm still a binge eater myself. I've to say – from my
personal experience – that realizing and accepting that I've an eating Disorder
helped me to fight it back. Now I know that, with the time, I will be able to
overcome this disorder. I'm practicing on breaking
the habit on Binge Eating, talking to myself that it's not me compulsively
desiring to eat so much, it's my irrational
brain, and I stay still, waiting for the impulse to leave.
Sometimes are better than others, I'm strong and stubborn so I'm not giving up,
I'm conscious though, it will be a long journey.
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